Are You Jaded?

In some ways I'm very optimistic but on certain subjects I'm pretty jaded.

Today when I was researching if there was a way I could be a student at a university in India so that I can compete with Indians (thinking their higher ed must be way cheaper than USA and lo and behold it is) I thought, man I have hit a low. I realized I think I've become jaded.

I am jaded. Pure and simple. Why? Because I keep believing in people and trusting them and I get "it" in the azz every-time. 1. Boyfriend - screws around on me for a year and a half and doesn't have the guts to tell me but we speak on the phone everyday. (his new very drunk girlfriend calls me @ 6:24AM on New Years Day 2009 and tells me) I was in North Florida taking care of my 89 year old step-father and he was here in Marathon, Fl. with a new girlfriend almost as soon as he got back. 2. I hate liars and thieves so that takes care of his azz.....he lied to me everyday that we talked; he broke my trust and I trusted him with all my heart. 3. I loved him and never thought to do anything that would jeopardize our relationship but he was selfish and used me because I have a house and 2 acres up in N. Florida. As I type this I am in atrial fib (top part of the heart flutters and the blood flow doesn't flow as it should. 4. I forgave him when I came back here and he just doesn't see anything but negativity in everything. Lucky #5 - I learned today that it just doesn't matter what he thinks or what he does. If it causes me harm then I will NOT put up with that kind of abuse. To get me so upset that I go into atrial fib that's all I needed to shock me out of trying to keep our "friendship." My lesson in all this is I stick with my gut feelings and that's always worked so lesson learned. Jaded? Yes. Damaged beyond repair? NEVER! Time does heal all wounded hearts, and my trust is back within my own soul, no problem....*time.....note to self: forget his sorry butt...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cQU0_PHUB2E

Here I stand, the goddess of Desire
Set men on fire
I have this power
Morning noon and night it's drink and dancing
Some quick romancing
And then a shower
Stage door johnnies always surround me
They always hound me
With one request
Who can satisfy their lustful habits
I'm not a rabbit
I need some rest

I'm tired
Sick and tired of love
I've had my fill of love
From below and above
Tired, tired of being admired
Tired of love uninspired
Let's face it
I'm tired

I've been with 1000's of men
Again and again
They promise the moon
They always coming and going
Going and coming
And always too soon
Right girls?

I'm tired,
Tired of playing the game
Ain't it a crying shame
I'm so tired
God dammit I'm exhausted

Tired, tired of playing the game
Ain't it a crying shame
I'm so tired

[Soldiers:]
She's tired (She's tired)
Sick and tired of love (Give her a break)
She's had her fill of love (She's not a snake)
From bellow and above (Can't you see she's sick)
Tired (She's bushed)
Tired of being admired (Let her alone)
Tired of love uninspired (Get off the phone)
She's tired (Don't you know she's pooped)

I've been with 1000's of men
Again and again
They sing the same tune
They start with Byron and Shelly
And jump on your belly
And bust your ballon
Aye!

Tired, tired of playing the game
Ain't it a freakin' shame
I'm so...
Let's face it everything below the waist is kapput!

[Soldiers:]
Tired!

Now, George Sanders was jaded.

His suicide note:

Dear World, I am leaving you because I am bored. I feel I have lived long enough. I am leaving you with your worries in this sweet cesspool - good luck.

Me? I still have oodles of "uplifting" moments hearing birdsong, looking at fluffy white clouds in a bright blue sky, enjoying a fine glass of wine, or looking at the man sleeping next to me each morning (the same one for 28+ years). I think I was put on the world to enjoy the beauty that God has wrought, and I do...indeed.

Absolutely!

I am jaded on a number of issues. I simply get frustrated because there is a lack of justice in the world. No one will pay for the oil spill or the war crimes committed in our name. The environment is being continuously destroyed by humans and they are doing nothing to stop it considering the politicians are bought and sold by corporations. I am most definitely jaded.

I fight being jaded quite alot. So on some days, yeah, I am and on other days I am not.

When I first started teaching,(way too long ago!) I would observe teachers ready to retire, ones that sat in the lounge barking complaints at this and at that... I pray every day I don't turn into one of those. They looked unhappy, they spoke nothing but misery and had nothing positive to say. Then I met Margie Palmer. She was almost ready to retire, was funny as hell and was quite positive. I remember being at her memorial service recently (she passed away a few months ago) I made a promise to her that I would be like her... happy and funny and not jaded. It is quite difficult, but hey... a promise should be kept right?

I sure am, and I like me this way.

:)

Well now it won't be but a week or two
'Till you'll be out lovin someone new
Seems like it's happened a hundred times before
But I can see you been spreadin' yourself thin too
It's a lonely stage that we been goin' through
So don't get up I can find my own way to the door

CHORUS:
And I can see you are an angel
With wings that won't unfold
Tune up your harp
Polish your old halo
The only kind of man that you ever wanted
Was one that you knew you'd never hold very long
Sittin' there cryin' like I'm the first one to go

You may have thirty lovers behind you
I can feel you but I just can't find you
Seems like you would have found your own self by now
But late at night those lover's tears come back
Faces in your dreams, fingers in your back
Voices of the memories for cryin' out loud

CHORUS

Well it's a lovely sight to see you in your sleep
I believe I'm leavin I'm in too deep
I guess that's easy enough for any man to say
Still we'd never agree if we talked all night
Things are gettin' heavy and I'm travelling light
Goodbye you Jaded Lover you under cover queen for a day

CHORUS

"Well sit on it darlin...."

Jerry Jeff Walker

and one of my favorites!

Jaded and cynical. Also pessimistic. That pretty much sums it up.

The general implication is that children cannot be jaded. Jadedness is a trait that has the potential to come with age. We are to be warriors against the constant onslaught of horrible news, violence, pain, suffering, worry, disease, death, abandonment, lonliness, depression, fatigue, stress, and disappointment.

Children can be jaded. I was since I was an early teen.